Yawwww its true :) I am so dam fuck up jeles at this girl dam her life is just full of happnes and smile . I can't stand looking at her photoes because it makes me trying to be like her , but i am trying to be my self so that i can be proud of my self not because i am trying to be someone else . Dam i can't stop thinking about HER cause its to happy to see her photoes and i have a life that is not like her just a normal melay people i just cant say anything because i am thinking to much , but yeah i hope when i am 14 that means next year i want to be a normal girl not to hyper but just a normal girl and a good girl :) so that people don"t think dirty of me , just like some of my friends dam i hate staying in this kind of place where i am staying because there is know people that think like my standert not being to much of a drama girl but just a good girl that is kind of perfect to make people smile and have friends that is a kind like what i am thinking to be and trying to be not a faker but a true girl that people will like the way i am :) Yes i am changing a lot bit by bit , day by day .
I am changing because i am now almost turning 14 in a few months now . So i want to be a good girl now not the old me , like a rude girl and more kind of negitif kind of stuf by the way i am so stupied in spelling yeah i its true i love to talk but i can't spell it , how shame i am :( but there is still time to be what am i chacing to be . But i was thinking if i change to much , will all my friends like it , my family or even my BOYFRIEND ? How ?! I dont know what or where to start it by know . But i am so different since i have a BOYFRIEND and his friends make me "sedar" how is a social life for know days people . Now i am starting to act like i am 18 but i am just 13 . HUHHH , i can't keep it up but i can just think what is rite and wrong MAYBE .
I can't belive it but u know i am seriously a girl that act like i have know brains because when i was a childish girl growing up to the world i thought that i cant be hardcore girl and such as more stupied things i was thinking a few months back but is so fast i can change what i am know and i know how bad it is but it is kind of fun being in a place where i am right now because i have more and much fun but it can't beet my 2009 seniour year when i was in primiry school yaw it so a fun dam year but time is just a second that we can't go back anymore not even a bit but if i can go back in time i will make everyting just there way i want .
JUST TRYING TO BE THE BEST OUT OF THE BEST IN THE WORLD MAYBE .
JUST SOMEONE LIKE YOU TO .
BUT MUCH MORE IN A DIFFERENT WAY AND ROAD .
JUST DEAL WITH WHAT I AM KNOW .
NO COMMENTS OR WHATEVER STUFF JUST BE HAPPY IT ;)
